So there isn’t much going on with my health lately, which is good. It’s nice to have a break from it all. Even though it’s still happening I can kind of pretend it’s not, right? Jan and I kind of have an exercise schedule. We go out walking together supposedly once a day. We went on Sunday and today. We are supposed to pair it with language learning. Maybe we will do...
So you know my story. I need a new kidney. If you would like to donate or know anyone that would like to donate please contact Ashley Archer-Hayes, transplant coordinator, at 858-554-4310. Thanks so much.
I just realized what if I don’t get another chance? I’m heartbroken. No wonder I can’t sleep at night. In the back of my head I know this is going to be harder this time around. But even harder because I have to find another donor. Joel’s a possibility but what if he’s not a match? Then what? Wait years? I guess that’s the only option. I think I really...
I’m paranoid about my stomach. I’m contemplating voluntary fasting tomorrow. Or today. Just thinking about it makes me hungry. Oh well labs will tell.
I just watched The Surrogacy Trap on Lifetime Movie Network. It was the most twisted movie I have seen. It was about a couple, played by Mia Kirshner and David Hirsch, who were having trouble conceiving. So they decide to hire a surrogate. Anyways they end up picking a psycho one, played by Rachel Blanchard. However they don’t figure out she’s psycho until she’s like half way into the...
Ok so I’m free once again! I’m not so tired. My tummy is a little sensitive but I’m easing into the food with soup for now. Hopefully by the end of the week I’ll be able to handle solids.
I’m waking up in a hospital bed again. No it’s not a dream. I went to urgent care Friday because of stomach and back pain. I had this pain for a few days. At first I thought it was cramps. But by day 3 it was unbearable. We went to urgent care late so we ended up in the ER. After some tests I was diagnosed with pancreatitis. I’m haven’t been allowed to eat since I got...
I’m re-reading Hunger Games on the kindle. I was trying to read it in traditional book format but I kept falling asleep. I was able to read to chapter 2 on my kindle but it ran out of battery and I can’t seem to find the charger.
zzzquil did not knock me out as I had hoped. I felt a tingling in the head, still do but that’s it. I want to sleep. I even tried a sound app on my phone. I feel sleepy typing this.
I think I passed out. I had just got home. I felt a bit woozy. I went straight to my bed, called my mom to let her know I made it safe and then boof! I was out. I just woke up right now 2 hours later still feeling kinda out of it.
twigwise: asuka-sohryu: next time you’re feeling like shit remember the sloths they don’t do anything ever and they haven’t gone extinct you can afford to take a nap This Is literally the most uplifting and comforting thing I’ve read all day
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For some reason I can’t stay asleep in my bed. So I’m once again downstairs on the futon, the one I want to get rid of. I don’t know what’s keeping me from sleeping. I barely took a nap and the rest of the day I was active. I hope I can fix this soon.
I’m determined to do lots of things today. I’ve already cut my nails, and addressed Jocelyn’s birthday card. Those may seem like little tasks but at least they are a start. Today I woke up wanting to eat cheesy omelets. Those are definitely not on the renal diet. So unfortunately, due to lack of ingredients I didn’t have any. I actually haven’t eaten yet. I’m not sure what I’ll eat or when but...
I want to write a happy blog like “Oh Joy” but then again it really wouldn’t be super true right now. Don’t get me wrong I’m happy at times. And I’m grateful, appreciative that it’s not worse but I wish it was easier. I’ve been having trouble sleeping. I had hoped to get a quick fix prescription from the doctor for sleeping pills but instead I...
This week’s Urban Spoon was Antonious Pizza in Redlands, CA. We thought it’d be a regular pizza parlor but it ended up being more like a stand with only outside seating. We bought by the slice which only gave us 2 choices: pepperoni or cheese. The plus was the slices were only $0.99 each! The slices were kinda on the small side so if you’re hungry you might want to order 2. ...
It’s only day 2 in my Health and Law class so I realized it’s probably too early to bring up discrimination in discussion. So I’m going to throw my thought here into the tumblr world. So it’s Health and Law so of course we are having a discussion about ethics, values in health care systems. We talked about the Terri Schiavo case and what we would do. We are talking...
Going out with my dad is exhausting! I don’t know what it is but after every outing I feel like I just want to collapse. Today we went to Ikea. We bought some random things. Well I had been wanting to go because I needed a curtain rod for my room and have been wanting to organize the magazines and Joel’s comics. So I got my stuff plus a mattress pad. My dad has been watching hgtv too...
New class is starting tomorrow. Health and law. My instructor seems really intense but has a very impressive career in Health Administration. I bet he will be a great resource in the career I will be pursuing. So I spent the last hour doing all the pre-class reading; checking the forums, reading the syllabus, and checking in. I’m definitely more enthusiastic about this class than the last. ...
I just came back from hiking with Clover and Joel. Houlda Crooks has some really nice trails. We didn’t make it all the way up but it was definitely a good walk. According to my new fitbit zip we walked over 8,000 steps. Not bad for day one. For some reason I can’t connect with friends via Facebook. I have to figure it out because it’ll be nice to compete against Elaine....
I finished a paper today. Finally. I still have one more to write. I thought I had 3 but this is week 6. All we have is group work this week. I want to start the next class but I’m scared too also. This class wasn’t interesting to me. What if the next one isn’t either?
It’s one of those sleepless nights. I’m tired but I have a nagging feeling. I want to see if Jan’s awake but I know she’s sleeping. It’s weird usually I cant stay up past 8pm and everyone is awake but now it’s the opposite. It’s lonely to be up so late by yourself. It’s even too late to text Elaine because she has work in the morning.
I’ve been having trouble sleeping lately. This is reminiscent of the first time. I didn’t really research it before but Joel pulled up an article about hemodialysis and sleeping yesterday. The article mentioned “day night reversal.” Thats when you experience tiredness during the day, end up sleeping all day, and being awake at night. For someone that has to work, this...
I’m hot temperature wise. I’m hesitant. It’s hard to be independent when I’m so dependent. I think I finally get it but I already miss it. There are days I wish we were kids again even though we fought so hard to grow up.
It’s a time of a new start, renewal. Not only are we reminded of it because it is spring and new life is growing all around us but religiously, Easter is a reminder of the sacrifices that were made for us. I’m going to take this new start as like the start of the “new year.” I think I’ll create resolutions now. I was too preoccupied at the beginning of the year...
I think I’ve become judge-y in my old age. I used to think that it was okay to be this way especially in my age because I’ve earned it, I’ve learned things, I know things… but I’m not so sure I’m going about it the right way. So being judge-y to me is having these expectations/standards and holding people to them. And I’ve been doing this but...
Today was a nothing day. Nothing good happened. Nothing bad happened. I’ve realized that I never wanted a nothing life. This realization has got me a little depressed. I’ve always wanted to be somebody. I think I was beginning to be somebody last year but now I feel like I faded into the background. It’s hard to be relevant in my field now that I’ve been gone a year....
Totally zapped today. I just don’t get it.
Stayed up till now 4:30ish am doing nothing and snacking on jicama and chips.
Insomnia + hunger + food pics= bad
We ended up going. It was fun. Free food, drinks. Joel and I won free linens and lighting.
I’m supposed to go to a wedding open house but my heart’s not into it.
I fell asleep during half time of the Laker game. Now I’m awake trolling the Internet. Joel and I had Red Lobster for dinner. We rarely eat there but it was Friday and I wanted fork and spoon food. There’s just something about eating with utensils that makes you feel a bit better about yourself. I don’t know what it is. Plus it was a cold night so hot food was a...
I got the dress! I went into the store thinking I wouldn’t find anything. I had every intention of trying on all the different shapes so I could get an idea of what looked good. I ended up trying on 3 dresses and choosing the first dress I tried on. It’s interesting that unlike the shows there were no tears but I think everyone knew that it was the dress. The price sealed the...
First day wedding dress shopping today. I don’t know if I’ll find anything today. It’s so weird I planned this all out in high school and now I’m completely unsure of anything. I can’t commit to anything, well besides Joel.