An abundance of ramblings

My new favorite shirt.

Thu, 23 May 2013 18:52:36 -0700

My new favorite shirt.

So there isn’t much going on with my health lately, which is good. It’s nice to have a...

Tue, 21 May 2013 20:35:41 -0700

So there isn’t much going on with my health lately, which is good. It’s nice to have a break from it all. Even though it’s still happening I can kind of pretend it’s not, right? Jan and I kind of have an exercise schedule. We go out walking together supposedly once a day. We went on Sunday and today. We are supposed to pair it with language learning. Maybe we will do that tonight. It is definitely nice to have a schedule. I think the fact that I’m symptom free lately is making me a little stir-crazy. I’m not tired all the time. I’m not pressed to go to the doctor every day. I have time to be bored. That feeling is so weird because for the last year I’ve been too sick to be bored. I guess it’s a good sign. Maybe everything that happens this week is a sign that it’s time to go back to work. (Cross your fingers it is at a new job closer to home).

I’m still being proactive about being put on the transplant list. I have a stress test coming up, some blood work, and even a colonoscopy in the near future but I’m just taking it all slowly, and one day at a time. I haven’t heard from SCRIPPS lately. Maybe I should call them.

I also need to call Jenna to start home-hemo training. I’m a little nervous to start this because I keep overbleeding at dialysis, when they take me off the machine. It was supposed to get better after they opened up my vein but I still bled a lot on Monday.. Maybe I am just a “bleeder” but that’s what makes me nervous. If a tech can’t stop the bleeding how am I supposed to stop it on my own, at home? Joel says that is what training is for. I suppose he’s right. I will call them tomorrow.

I tried arm knitting a blanket this afternoon. I got farther than this but took it apart. I didn’t have the right amount of yarn. You are supposed to use 3 different skeins at 1 time. I was only using 1. I just wanted to see if it would come out good but I couldn’t really tell from what I did. I guess I’ll have to try it. I’m fascinated with knitting and making things with yarn. I don’t know if it’s because my grandma was into crochet or what? I wasn’t really into it while she was alive because I could/should have asked her how to do it. But now I have these phases where I want to knit or crochet, and try new projects. I’m going to try this blanket thing again when I get more yarn.

What else? It’s been awhile since I’ve blogged. I’ve been following a bunch of different blogs lately, even looking at instagram. The blogs that I enjoy right now are: designlovefest.com, ohjoyblogs.com, and navywifechronicles.wordpress.com. I also follow a bunch in my tumblr dashboard but those I check on a daily basis, and I even have them saved on my phone. The navywifechronicles one is my Aunt’s. It’s fun to read up on her life there. Oh on instagram I just started following #popsicleproject and kiagregory.

It’s pretty neat to see what people put on social media. I think its an amazing outlet for people to express themselves. It’s also inspiring to those who come across it. I was inspired by my sister, a fellow blogger, to start this blog. Now it has become a type of therapy for me. I can ramble about anything. All this rambling helps me to clear my mind.

Trisisterhood.

Tue, 21 May 2013 09:07:43 -0700

Trisisterhood.

Tuesday selfie. Excited to get an echocardiogram and EKG. Not...

Tue, 14 May 2013 13:33:02 -0700

Tuesday selfie. Excited to get an echocardiogram and EKG.

Not really but oh well. Could be worse.

So you know my story. I need a new kidney. If you would like to donate or know anyone that would...

Wed, 01 May 2013 23:28:46 -0700

So you know my story. I need a new kidney. If you would like to donate or know anyone that would like to donate please contact Ashley Archer-Hayes, transplant coordinator, at 858-554-4310.

Thanks so much.

I just realized what if I don’t get another chance? I’m heartbroken. No wonder I...

Wed, 01 May 2013 23:03:29 -0700

I just realized what if I don’t get another chance? I’m heartbroken. No wonder I can’t sleep at night. In the back of my head I know this is going to be harder this time around. But even harder because I have to find another donor. Joel’s a possibility but what if he’s not a match? Then what? Wait years? I guess that’s the only option.

I think I really understand how unfair life can be. Being on dialysis is hard. Picking myself up every morning is hard. Waking up to new hardships is so hard.

When will my life be easy?

I’m paranoid about my stomach. I’m contemplating voluntary fasting tomorrow. Or today....

Wed, 01 May 2013 01:59:41 -0700

I’m paranoid about my stomach. I’m contemplating voluntary fasting tomorrow. Or today. Just thinking about it makes me hungry. Oh well labs will tell.

I just watched The Surrogacy Trap on Lifetime Movie Network. It was the most twisted movie I have...

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 09:38:16 -0700

I just watched The Surrogacy Trap on Lifetime Movie Network. It was the most twisted movie I have seen. It was about a couple, played by Mia Kirshner and David Hirsch, who were having trouble conceiving. So they decide to hire a surrogate. Anyways they end up picking a psycho one, played by Rachel Blanchard. However they don’t figure out she’s psycho until she’s like half way into the pregnancy. And of course they have to put up with her because she’s carrying their child. Rachel Blanchard’s character, Mallory, stalks them, tries to seduce the husband, and even tries to kill the wife. It was crazy!

Morning selfie. 2 hours of sleep with a busy day ahead.

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 09:30:01 -0700

Morning selfie. 2 hours of sleep with a busy day ahead.

Ok so I’m free once again! I’m not so tired. My tummy is a little sensitive but...

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 13:46:13 -0700

Ok so I’m free once again! I’m not so tired. My tummy is a little sensitive but I’m easing into the food with soup for now. Hopefully by the end of the week I’ll be able to handle solids.

I’m waking up in a hospital bed again. No it’s not a dream. I went to urgent care...

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 08:36:01 -0700

I’m waking up in a hospital bed again. No it’s not a dream. I went to urgent care Friday because of stomach and back pain. I had this pain for a few days. At first I thought it was cramps. But by day 3 it was unbearable. We went to urgent care late so we ended up in the ER. After some tests I was diagnosed with pancreatitis. I’m haven’t been allowed to eat since I got here. I’m hungry but not starving like yesterday. I want out of here. I don’t understand why I get every disease.

I’m re-reading Hunger Games on the kindle. I was trying to read it in traditional book format...

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 18:00:19 -0700

I’m re-reading Hunger Games on the kindle. I was trying to read it in traditional book format but I kept falling asleep. I was able to read to chapter 2 on my kindle but it ran out of battery and I can’t seem to find the charger.

zzzquil did not knock me out as I had hoped. I felt a tingling in the head, still do but...

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 00:45:03 -0700

zzzquil did not knock me out as I had hoped. I felt a tingling in the head, still do but that’s it. I want to sleep. I even tried a sound app on my phone. I feel sleepy typing this.

I think I passed out. I had just got home. I felt a bit woozy. I went straight to my bed, called...

Mon, 22 Apr 2013 13:39:21 -0700

I think I passed out. I had just got home. I felt a bit woozy. I went straight to my bed, called my mom to let her know I made it safe and then boof! I was out. I just woke up right now 2 hours later still feeling kinda out of it.

twigwise: asuka-sohryu: next time you’re feeling like shit remember the sloths they don’t do...

Sun, 21 Apr 2013 21:33:34 -0700

twigwise:

asuka-sohryu:

next time you’re feeling like shit

remember the sloths

they don’t do anything ever

and they haven’t gone extinct

you can afford to take a nap

This

Is literally the most uplifting and comforting thing I’ve read all day

Little me.

Sun, 21 Apr 2013 21:28:31 -0700

Little me.

WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT ON YOUR PLANET?

Fri, 19 Apr 2013 08:38:20 -0700

Italy

Joel and I have become “so Redlands” lately. We...

Fri, 19 Apr 2013 08:36:42 -0700

Joel and I have become “so Redlands” lately. We frequent downtown several days a week. Joel stops by Comic Quest for weekly comics, and I tag-along for a dessert at Martha Greens. I even have become a fan of shopping at Leroy’s.

Last night we headed to Market Night in search of funnel cake. Unfortunately, there was none but we did leave with banana cream pie and BBQ jumbo burritos.

For some reason I can’t stay asleep in my bed. So I’m once again downstairs on the...

Fri, 19 Apr 2013 01:32:23 -0700

For some reason I can’t stay asleep in my bed. So I’m once again downstairs on the futon, the one I want to get rid of. I don’t know what’s keeping me from sleeping. I barely took a nap and the rest of the day I was active. I hope I can fix this soon.

#selfie

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 10:35:07 -0700

#selfie